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My heart is broken and tears stream from my eyes as I leave the detention center at Hampden and Wadsworth, people are rushing home from work and very impatient. I’m so lost in my thoughts at a light that I don’t turn when the light is shining green and a horn jolts me from my mental vacation. Every student I talked to today had a similar story, they either didn’t know their dad or their dad abused them or had some unhealthy relationship with them. Many of these students, sixteen or seventeen, are dads themselves and another generation on the path to not be around for their kids. I want to convey so convincingly that they have a Heavenly Father who has always been there for them and will never leave them or forget them. I want to reach over the table and give them a much needed hug [not really appropriate for a state juvenile justice system] and let them know that they have a friend who is always their for them and will always be listening.

One of the students I connect with just got a picture of his daughter, she is 2 months old now and the picture had to be taken when she was weeks old. She looks a lot like him, he is grinning from ear to ear and talking about how he is going to get out of the system and be the father he never had to her. He has plans to provide and goals to bring a solid foundation to their new family. I believe him as he talks with a new conviction to change because of the picture he holds.The sad part is, as I learn later from his case manager, his girlfriend gave their daughter up for adoption and the family that adopted her is out of state. He may never see his daughter again, and depending on who he puts his faith in when he is on the outs he may just turn back to his old way of living.

These students are shaped by their past and my hope is that they reshape their present lives through transformation through Christ to begin generations of families that love God, serve Him, contribute to their community which they live in, and become fathers that are intentional and purposeful to have healthy relationships with their children with the help of Christ.

A video with Denver Area YFC [with City Life and Teen Parents]

Many of the young people I work with have these incredible extremes in life. There home life is unpredictable, chaotic, and uncertain. Then they get caught making poor choices and move to this structured, regimented, and many quiet times with them in a room only hearing their own heart beat. I see these young people get tossed back and forth by the waves of life and they are unable to stand on their own two feet. But, over and over again I see them land on their feet, firm, solid, sure! When in the quietness of their room, they talk with THE ONE who saves them from this storm! It seems that when they are taken away from the noise, the storm, they have a clearer focus and direction! What they had been doing before is not working! They need a new leader, some one to give their life to! In those moments, Christ is so clear to them, He enters into their loneliness, their past...He becomes their HOPE! May Jesus calm the storm of our lives forever and ever! Amen!

The following is an excerpt from our National President of YFC/USA after hearing me talk at an event to potential supporters of our mission!

22 phone numbers…

Gareth is one of our YFC staff that works in juvenile detention centers. Our program in those places is known by the title Juvenile Justice Ministries. Staff serve as chaplains… as mentors… as friends… and always as committed followers of Jesus with a heart to reach the least and the lost.

Last month, Gareth relayed a story to me. It’s an unfinished story. In fact, it’s messy and burdensome, and laced with relational risk. The story is authentic.

A young man (I’ll call him Jake) who Gareth connected with four years ago in a detention center was the focus of the story. This young man has been in and out of various detentions centers. Gareth has invested in Jake with few guarantees there’s been peaks and valleys that accompany a genuine relationship with a fractured soul. And yes, he’s been disappointed. But Gareth doesn’t quit. In fact, he has a log of 22 phone numbers that Jake has used over the past four years. Like a Rolodex for a single individual, Gareth maintains a database of contact information for Jake. With incredible tenacity, Gareth models love… unconditional love… forgiving love… hopeful love… pursuing love.

Gareth is young and talented. Far from naïve, he understands full well that the statistics are stacked against him, but he pursues and challenges and believes nonetheless. His disappointments (and there have been many) don’t make him callus or cold. Instead they produce the fuel God uses to ignite a powerful and relentless love which races into the brokenness with conviction and calling.

22 phone numbers…

Enough confusion and chaos to make even the most compassionate quit. But not Gareth. Because of The Ultimate Pursuer. Our model. The inspiration. God, through Jesus, pursued… to the death.

Messy, complicated, frustrating stories are no match for The Divine Deliverer. Not 22 phone numbers… never.

It is just one of the many reasons I am proud to represent this work – this pursuit – called Youth for Christ. Thousands of ‘Gareths’ press into the lives of young people and press on in relationships when most others would retreat.

¹¹Therefore, knowing the fear of the Lord, we persuade others. But what we are is known to God, and I hope it is known also to your conscience. ¹² We are not commending ourselves to you again but giving you cause to boast about us, so that you may be able to answer those who boast about outward appearance and not about what is in the heart. ¹³For if we are beside ourselves, it is for God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. ¹⁴For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; ¹⁵and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.

¹⁶From now on, therefore, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we once regarded Christ according to the flesh, we regard him thus no longer. ¹⁷Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. ¹⁸All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; ¹⁹that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. ²⁰Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. ²¹ For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

- 2 Corinthians 5:11-21 ESV

Your investment and partnership with us allows our staff to call one more number. In his quiet moments, Jake wonders… ‘Does Gareth really care?’ Because for Jake, that answers the question – does God really care?

And yes, God the pursuer really cares. For Jake, for Gareth, for you and for me.

Thank you for your support. We can’t do it without you.

Dan Wolgemuth, President/CEO

Youth for Christ/ USA

Disciples on a journey, it is constant growth, sometimes with the necessities and other times without. How resilient are we when we don't have everything we need to grow? Water is a need, the right nutrients are a need, sunshine...well, you get the picture. The youth I worth with in the juvenile facilities are pulled from the "soil" of life when they are "dying" and are cultivated in rich soil of attention and treatment and loving adults. Then when they are healthy they are transplanted back into communities and life that can "grow" them into unhealthy very quickly, unless they have their needs met. One need we have found to be successful in lifelong "growth" is one loving adult mentor. I am so fortunate and humbled be be working along side of a team that believes in investing themselves into young people, because they are loved. One young man just graduated with his G.E.D. which is the result of new fertile soil his life is now growing in. Once starved for needs, he now has relationship with one loving adult mentor who is living Life with a capital "L"! This young man is living loved in the Father and it is evident on the inside and out! Thanks for being on the team a partnering with us to transform the lives of young people!

So you know how they say God is good in the ups and downs of life?! Well this past week I have experienced that first hand! I ran my little Toyota Corolla into the back of an F-350 and the Ford truck won. All I could think about was the inconvience to all the travelers on the road, the guy I hit, the firefighter people, the paramedics, the police officer, and the first responder who all came to my rescue. Then I started thinking of all those that give to our family so faithfully and how I'm miss managing their sacrificial giving by getting into an accident. What truly humbled me was good friends who lent us their car for the week during our transition from crash car to different car. Then God's mercy and love entered my heart and the days to follow my actions and words.

Regret is a good teacher for me and I have learned so much about my Father during this, I've learned about myself, and other people! Much of the youth I talk with live with many regrets. Does it change their life? Their actions? Their hearts? Some can never forgive themselves. Some never ask for forgiveness for what they've done. Some have never received God's grace!

Later that week we receive a call from a good friend that asked if we had found another vehicle to replace the one I crashed. When we told her we were waiting to make a decision she replied with wait a little longer. Within 6 days we are in a new vehicle donated through this friend's church because of an email that went out from the pastor, who received an email or phone call about our situation! We do not deserve God's grace, that is why it is called grace, undeserved! And yet, let us not cheapen grace and take advantage of His death and resurrection. May we know Him more each day and love Him more each day!

I've been working with a lot of gang members lately...listening to them and trying to understand why they "bang", a term they use when they are part of a gang. Recently I was having a conversation with the son of one of the originals of a prominent gang, which means this young man's dad started this gang here in Denver. He doesn't live with his dad and feel s like he has betrayed him, but loves his mom and doesn't want to disappoint her. If he lives the way his mom wants him to live he will not follow his dad's "way of life" and feels he will be letting his dad down. He longs for his dad to be proud of him and love him, but that means following the gang life, there is "family" there too he says. But he loves his mom and doesn't want to disappoint her! He wants to be himself but has a reputation on the streets and in jail already as the son of...he struggles between good and evil moment by moment everyday! I struggle between good and evil moment by moment every day! I love my family, pictured above are my sons! I love them so much that I will raise them as Christ wants me to raise them, wanting the best for THEM, not having them live for me their dad, but for Christ who is the ultimate reason to live!

Have you ever been told you are not wanted? With a shrug and no emotion, (Nate) told me his parents had both said that to him. I'm devastated inside for him, he has put his walls, not feeling, not showing how he feels for fear of being rejected again. I lean over the table we are sitting across from each other and say, "God wants you, He loves you, he'll never leave you, he hurts when you hurt, and he longs to heal all of your pain!" Tears flow from once a hard heart, but the Holy Spirit has been working on his life long before I came into it. My Father wants to redeem all those that are defeated, broken, and hard-hearted! (Nate) has been pushing others way for fear of being hurt again. It will take time for him to trust again and he really doesn't even trust our friendship that has just started and doesn't want to get too close for fear that I will let him down. I let him know right up front that I will let him down, but his faith is not in humans but in Christ. My best friend, Jesus, has never let me down. Even when my perspective is messed up, Jesus brings me back to the truth that there is nothing I can do to make him love me more or less. He loves me because God first loved me! I cheapen grace when I think it is what I do that makes God love me. (Nate) has started a new journey of not being the victim of his parent's words, but walking in freedom of Christ's words!

The picture above, a friend of mine took on his canoe trip, is the ultimate visual of peace and tranquility. All the young people I work with have chaos and the picture of their life is painful, volatile, and devestating. I've been reading Mother Teresa's biography lately and she dedicated her live to the sick, the orphans, and the widows. 9 out of 10 young men have not had a father in their life or a uninvolved father. The young ladies that are incarcerated have been left by boyfriends and have been widowed in a way, left alone to take care of a baby. We are broken individuals in need of the One who puts things back together! I'm grateful that the chaos created in young peoples lives that are incarcerated have been and continue to be transformed by the love of Christ. Thanks for being a part of this team. Continue to pray for youth in Denver and the front range of Colorado.

Climbing up the class 4 scramble, hands and feet climbing over boulders and scaling rock, as the sun is setting I'm thinking, "What did I get myself into?". We were on the second day of our trip with at risk youth from Denver and had just talked about how important it is for each one of us to learn how to love God more and love others more as a result of that love for God and from God. One of the staff had taken that opportunity to speak into a young man's life and this young person took what he said wrong and took off and was standing at the top of the cliff pictured above. On my way up I'm thinking about my life's call, my family, I'm praying for the safety of this individual. Just that afternoon another kid had been kicked in the mouth and it messed up his braces and cut his mouth pretty bad. I couldn't help but think things weren't going well. Don't we pray more when there is crisis in our lives? Or when we are absolutely at the end of our rope? Or we are very aware that we are not in control?

I get to the top and there is another peak above, but there is also two other ways to head. I stop and catch my breath and listen, I'm getting ready to yell out the young man's name and hear a sound of someone getting closer so I wait. I see him before he sees me and when he does see me I scare him unintentionally, but I don't think he expected to see me. I let him know I care about him and worried that the night on top of the cliff won't be very comfortable and we eventually head back down with light from one headlamp.

I learned a lot on this trip. Risks are a necessity to allow God to transform our lives, young people are longing to have us share God's love and show them what God's grace and mercy looks like, and you never know what God sees on the inside of these kids, but there is always hope!

The last night we are sitting around a fire and speaking life into each other. Just the other day they were fighting and arguing and tearing each other down. This night they are appreciating each other and saying how thankful they are to have gotten to know each other! I praise God for the work of Holy Spirit and the lives that continue to change for His honor and glory!

What is God asking you to risk to be more transformed by Him?

I want to serve the best I can every day. God, my wife, my kids, my job, and others! I find myself serving youth's needs a lot in the detention center. The other day a staff person of the state asked me why I serve these kids. My answer was Christ served while he walked on this earth and I want to as well. You see, Jesus is our example of how to live. One of His last acts of service was to his disciples who walked with Him on this earth for three years. He lowered Himself to a servant, doing the job of washing his guest's feet...something none of the disciples would have volunteered to do in a million years. Sometimes we have to serve in ways that others would never do. Sometimes we have to give up our desires to do what He desires. Some people call that slavery...I call it true freedom! May we live to serve today!

Frank was sitting in the corner with his back toward the rest of the kids that were serving time in jail with him. He was taking a "self time-out", it is a time that kids can ask for where they are secluded from the rest of the kids. He was wearing a black shirt, different from the green shirts because he was an upper level. Upper level status is acquired when an individual runs the program at the facility with the highest level of commitment and consistency. Also, they are positive peers to the kids and have the ability to lead. However, his attitude was poor as he sat in the corner looking at the wall hitting his forehead with the butt of his hand and clenching his fist into a ball and then opening them. His nostrils were flaring and he was not breathing normally, more short and shallow breathes through clinched teeth. I sat down in the corner with him and asked what he was thinking about. "Killing that kid!" he said as he indicates the kid by tilting his head over his shoulder in the direction where the kid was sitting. I asked why and the tears began to come. His girlfriend of three years (he is now just 16) is pregnant and is contesting that he might not be the father and wants the courts to do a DNA test. He tells me that it kills him to think that she was with another guys and when he was sharing this with a group of peers, one made an inappropriate comment that if I was Frank I would have done something to the kids I would have regretted. Frank is a big 16 year old and already wears the stress of taking care of his younger brothers, his girlfriend who was/is having his baby, and helping his mom out with paying the rent. "I just want to prove to everyone that I'm different, I want my actions to back my words up this time!" he says through his tears. Frank has come to that crisis of life and has found Christ in it. I believe in the potential of every juvenile, that through Christ they can change their lives, their family's lives, their friend's lives, and their community. There is always hope, even if your sitting in a corner, looking at the wall to preoccupied to see it!

"The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy...but I [Jesus] have come so you would have life and live it to the full!" South Africa is full of death and disease, BUT the above picture is a place where those that have been left for dead find hope! I hear stories everyday of the enemy stealing, killing, and destroying! Even as I write this I'm hurting for friends of mine that the enemy is destroying! I hate the enemy! I despise his lies and false promises! We are in a war people! Some of you may be saying, "Whoa, Gareth what got you all fired up!?" I guess it is a day that I realize that my passion has to be visible and my desire, which I believe is God's desire, is for redemption of mankind! Christ has said that he has come so we would have life and live it to the full and yet I myself and many kids I work with accept this small part of life as the best we can do! No, with Christ we can do so much more! Will I trust Him? Do I believe I'm in control or is He in control! I surrender my life to Him today, every moment of every day. I thank you Father for being in the practice of Redemption! So many lives need that today!

I've thinking about Peter's conversation with Jesus, after Jesus dies and comes back to life, when Peter is being forgiven and restored into the position of building the Church that Christ came to establish. Relationship was so important to Jesus and knew what he was doing when he spoke life and forgiveness into Peter and the potential he had and was going to fulfill being one of the founders of the Christian church. Pictured above is one of the first kids I worked with and he is standing next to my boss, Nathan Jones with Denver Area Youth for Christ. I met this young man over two years ago and heard his dream to become a contributing member of society. Those first conversations were the beginning of a relationship with Christ and the mentoring relationship Nathan has with him now. Speaking life into kids is something I want to continue to do as Christ did with Peter! As this man continues to grow with Christ, Denver Area Youth for Christ will be a support to fulfill his dreams in his relationships, the community he lives in, and his family!

I do believe that the local church is the hope of the world. After all, that is why God sent His Son, to redeem us to Himself and perpetuate that relationship over and over, making disciples of Him. But, let's redefine church, is it a place for a bunch of people who are in this spiritual journey together come and get "fed"? Is it four walls? Is it a place to get or give? Or is it a bunch of messed up people struggling to know Him better and wherever they are in life, job, relationship with others, just abiding in Christ and saying, "Surprise me, God!" and then responding as He would have us respond in love and truth? It doesn't have to have a program name to it or be represented by a parachurch or church name? Meeting with delinquents and continuing to pour into them to become disciples I find that they talk to me a lot about their "doing" and I try to talk with them about their "being". It is good to pray (they always say every night), it is good to go to church (four walled building), it is good to read the Bible, but all of that is semantics if Jesus does not transform our moment by moment thoughts, words, and actions so that we exude the very spirit of Christ with people! May we work on BEING more than DOING and out of BEING we will be THE church! Some of my fellow colleagues joke with me about what I say I do now, I've been released from organized religion to be a youth pastor to THE church not just a youth pastor at A church. The above picture is a skyline of Denver, a city where I'm serving as a youth pastor and currently serving as a chaplain with Denver Area Youth for Christ and starting up Wilderness Experiential Ministry! The church IS the hope of the world, be a part of the solution, not part of the problem!

I have found that anything beautiful has to go through some pain or difficult time, the contrast makes it more beautiful. I work with many youth that deal with pain...their drug problem, or self harming behavior, their violence, or assaultive attitude is because of pain or loss in their lives. In order for a butterfly to survive out of the cocoon they have to go through the painful process of getting out of the cocoon. When people ask me how God could be loving when they've never known their father or he was abusive or nothing goes right in the world. I simply answer that God's story is bigger than my story. And whatever pain I experience is supposed to make His story more beautiful! May God be near in your pain and as you make it through ask how He wants you to share with others, His story!

Merry Christmas! I know that you are supposed to say all the things you are thankful for at Thanksgiving, but for me Christmas is the time that I remember what I'm MOST thankful for. I am forever saved because of my Saviour who was born. We celebrate Christmas to remember His birthday and the beginning of a relationship with God because of his substitutionary atonement! I'm thankful for the team that works with me through prayer, volunteering, donations, and support! I'm thankful for my wife who is my best friend and helpmate! I'm grateful for the opportunity to be dad and pour my life into my family because of the perspective I gain in ministry. No matter where you are at in your spiritual journey or your life, God sent His Son to have a relationship with you! The Holidays are happy because of Jesus.

I am always redefining the youth's perception of the church and who Christ can be in their lives. When they find themselves behind these fences and move into crisis mode they are grasping at anything that will relieve their conscience and sometimes that is prayer or reading the bible. Many times it involves going to church or confessing. They are always wanting to DO something to make things right. They are surprised when I say there is nothing they can DO to make God love you! It has already been done! The formula for checking the boxes to make them feel better doesn't work. Instead, abiding in Christ and focusing on being with Him is the path I ask them to follow. So, there isn't just a box to check, "yep, I prayed today!" It is giving complete control to Him and allowing Him to step into all their pain, their brokenness, their family situations, and yes even their court dates! The most spiritual thing I can do each day is choose. Every moment of every day I depend on Him for my thoughts, words, and actions...I choose Jesus, not a formula or a religion, but a relationship!

When Christ was talking to Peter after his resurrection, Peter felt like Christ had lost trust in him. Jesus asks him three times, "Do you love me?" And each time Peter answers yes he is more and more adamant. You see, I don't think it was Jesus not trusting, I think is was his way to remind Peter what he was called to do. Each one of us have purpose on this earth. We are not called to eat, sleep, repeat. We are called to continue to build the church. I continue to remind juveniles of their purpose on this earth and how they can transform this world we live in. Each one of them have their doubts, but just like Peter, Christ is there to remind them through me, "Do you love me?!" Continue to pray for Denver and the youth that will transform this world through their relationship with Christ.