I have found that anything beautiful has to go through some pain or difficult time, the contrast makes it more beautiful. I work with many youth that deal with pain...their drug problem, or self harming behavior, their violence, or assaultive attitude is because of pain or loss in their lives. In order for a butterfly to survive out of the cocoon they have to go through the painful process of getting out of the cocoon. When people ask me how God could be loving when they've never known their father or he was abusive or nothing goes right in the world. I simply answer that God's story is bigger than my story. And whatever pain I experience is supposed to make His story more beautiful! May God be near in your pain and as you make it through ask how He wants you to share with others, His story!